What 4 full uninterupted days with my boys makes me wonder

It's times like these in which I most think about what it is like to have boys without Autism, or needs of the sort.

These last few days have been nice, we have gone to the lake, the park with a splash pad, even played a little Frisbee golf. Spent some time driving around town so I could take advantage of expiring coupons and deals, while doing this visited a couple places I know the boys enjoy as well. And had some good quiet relaxing time at home, and in the yard together as well playing in the sprinkler. Can you tell my boys like the water?

But times like this make me wonder, what would we do, if my 12 year old was like the average boy out there? If I was not worried about the fact that we are currently out of the anxiety medicine for my 7 year old, one he is suppose to take daily, and has not had it in 5 days due to getting a doc apt late. Though I will say he has been better without it than I thought, but I can surely see the difference. How would times like these be different? Would we go fishing, maybe go to a baseball game? Play some basketball, or even a video game together? Would I plan a special project like building something with them, or would the 12 Yr old want to spend time with friends, have them over to the house? Heck would I make them do chores, like yard work and such?

I am not wondering these things out of sadness, for I now think about things like this and wonder, would I enjoy them as much as I enjoy them now? See Josh and I have these odd but fun for both of us conversations and little games, that only a person with his uniqueness would come up with. And Chris for all his oddities, allows me to relax at home in ways, I am not sure another boy would. 

You see many times in the past I would wonder, why am I wired the way I am, why do I think the way I think? Well I now believe, I am the way I am, cause God knew it would prepare me for dealing with what I now do, with these boys. Not only deal with it, but find happiness in them, in ways I could never find with other "Normal" boys. For heck I am not normal. I even wonder from the things I have heard about my early childhood, if I should have been labeled in same way many kids with unique needs are nowadays?

So all in all, it has been a good 4 days so far, and Josh has not screamed once yet, couple minor fits, and bouts of sadness, but no major screaming fit. And Chris also has not had any bouts of being overly upset. That along with all the laughs and smiles I have seen, makes me wonder. Do I have the most perfect boys I could possible have? I think maybe so!