Had something on my mind for a while now, so I have decided to write it out.
I have always been a goal oriented person. I set them, layout a course of action, and then work towards it. In all aspects of life. Career, relationships, parenting, ETC. And when I meet that goal I set another one, keep moving forward. This has been especially the case in my work life. I have always moved up. My first real job was bag boy at Kroger, 16 years old. After 6 months I was cashier, 6 months later CSM, and about 6 months later head CSM. Ya 18 years old, just out of HS and was the lead customer service manager. Had a really bad day one day, and just up and quit that job, the one immature knee jerk work related choice I made. I was young. Got a Job at another grocery store as cashier, after a little while started helping out in dairy, then became Frozen Foods manager. Even though this job was just a job while in college, I looked for growth. Growth was not an opportunity there, so left for Wal-Mart. In 3 years at Wal-Mart I stated PT as a sales clerk, became FT, took at hourly management position, which lead to Asst Mgr. After deciding that WM was not my life career goal, stepped down from management and later left them for the current company I am at, Anderson Merchandisers. 3 years as a FT sales rep, became a district manager(DSM). took 4 years to became level 3, highest level DSM there is, then took larger high profile district in Dallas, and now am the DSM for the most important district in the company. I am also now at the ceiling for salary for the position. The next step would be regional manager, but here's the thing. I no longer want to relocate my family. A personal choice I happily accept, but that means I no longer have much, if any opportunity as things sit to move up. That is a situation I have never been in, and it is tough for me to grasp the idea.
As things sit, I cannot make any more money and I cannot grow my Job status.
Now lets add something personal I am dealing with. As I have been very open about recently, I have put a lot of focus on my faith in Christ, and my new found life in God. And that has helped me greatly personally. And I am going to continue this path.
But recently I have started to wonder, what is my calling from God? I wonder this cause I know that he has a huge plan, one for me to make some sort of impact on this world that I could never have done without him. Why do I know this? Well, that has always been my nature. Whatever I am doing, do it the best way possible, impact lives while I am doing it, and then move up into a position to make even a bigger more widespread impact. That is the way I am wired, and God wired me that way for a reason. So that being said, What is the reason he wired me that way? It cannot be just to help me in my career, it has to me more than that.
So here I sit, kinda at a stalled point in my career, Wondering if this is as far as I am to go right now, and then also wondering where is my faith in God taking me? What is my direction??
So whoever reads this I ask something of you. Say a prayer tonight for me. Ask God to share some peace with me, that whatever his plan is, I can sit back and let him make it happen, and not to worry about it so much.
Thanks.
