Remembering my Mother, and she is still looking out for me.

Today, Jennifer and I took Desiree to Six Flags for the first time. I wore a hat of mine, one that my mom bought me when I was young for a Bday, 18th or 19th. I refer to it as the last thing my Mom gave me, though it really was not, for she did not pass till I was 25, and she gave me many things after my teenage years.

The reason I refer to the hat the way I do was the way she gave it to me. You see, I was with her in the mall, and  she was shopping for some clothes and other things. I say this hat, and at the time, the only hats I ever wore was ball caps. Had plenty of them too. But this hat caught my eye. Those of you who have known me a long while and spent time out in poblic with me probably know what hat I am talking about. I even was not allowed in a bar in CS once while out with my friends, made me so mad I yelled at the girl working the door, told my freinds to #$%@ this place and walked back out. But back to my mom and me. So I picked it up, put it on my head and said, wow this looks cool. It is actually not very cool by popular opinion, but I never cared. She was so suprised I liked it, she said well if you like it so much Ill buy it for you. Now this was a rarity growing up. I almost never got NEW clothing, unless it was for basketball, and even rarer was getting things like a bradn new hat just because. But anyway she bought it for me, said it was a Bday gift, even though that day had past by a week or so. Anything else she gave me after that point was stuff like something I needed for school, or for my wedding, or family I was starting. So that was the last thing she gave to me, just for me and though she says it was a Bday present, it really was just because, for no real reason other than she wanted me to be happy.

Well Its 20 years old now, pretty beat up looking, but I still wear it with pride. I wore it today to Six Flags. Well every rollercoaster we went on, of course hats will fly off, so I sat on it for every ride. Have done this in the past anytime that situation came up, never an issue. And today was no different untill the very last ride we went on. The Texas Giant.

While in line Des and I chatted up a couple with 2 daughters. Once we got in the rollercoaster that couple sat 3 cars behind us. I as usual put my hat on the seat and sat on it. Well as the ride went on, it was a very fast one, with a lot of ups and downs, thus my body came out of my seat many times. I did not realize it but one of those times may hat slid up the back of the seat and flew away!!!

As the ride ended and we came to a stop I hear a lady behind me yelling, 'Hey, he caught your hat" She yelled it a couple times, untill I turned around to see the couple we chatted up in line, and the guy waving my hat in the air. As the hat slip up the seat during the ride, it flew directly behind me, the gentleman having his hands in the air, as is proper on this type of ride, saw the hat fly out, and snatched it out of the air. He says this was right as the rollercoaster was about to make a dramatic curve.

WOW just wow, what are the odds?? I laughed it off, thanked the guy and shook his hand. He said no problem and they walked away. Then it hit me. I almost lost that hat, and yes a tear almost formed.

I had to look up and say, Thanks mom for looking out for me today, cause I know that is the only reason I did not lose it.

Mind is racing at possible opportunities.

Today I attended a company meeting with some upper management and financial officers. The goal, plan out a test program in my district, what it will take to impliment, then create a proposal for it to be rolled out to the whole company. Won't go into details, but a couple things really blew my mind, because I have never been involved in in the descision making process of things this big before.

To roll out test in my district for 8 weeks alone would cost estimated $125,000, and then to impliment program company wide, would run a yearly cost of $15.5mil. Yes thats $15,500,000. It took us about an hour to get to these numbers using the data we where given, and wehn I mentioned it to my CFO, with a huge gulp I might add, he just nodded and said, we should probably add couple million just to be safe.

Then afterwards, my boss gave us some more info about company goals and growth possibilites, that really got me excited, especially because he followed up with an email later in the evening, telling me his plan is to have me ready to take his place when he gets his goal of moving up. This would be exactly what what I want. A promotion, new challenge, without having to move.

I also was asked by our VP of sales and CFO to attend 2 more meetings next week. Now I love the oppotunites, but I still have to do my regulary scheduled job as well, phew. Its gonna be a busy month.

To add to this a good friend of mine got came to me with what I think is a very good business opportunity, something that could take a while to get going, but I think has a lot of potential.

All in all I have to say I might be praying for some serious guideance soon. But I am not going to complain when the guideance neededs is of this nature.

Just to darn old

I remember when I was a young man, and I could drink what I wanted on a given night and then the next morning when that alarm went off, be up and at it without little problem.

Now it is a different world, I am not that man anymore, and last night I forgot that.

It was a good day at work, had a relaxing evening in the pool with the family. Then the Spurs played a great game to rout the Heat. And in the middle of the Spurs game I came to that point, do I continue with what I am doing with this beverage, or am I to old for this and in the morning will regret it terribly? Well I am at that point I NEED to tell myself "I am just to darn old" in those situations, and you know what, normally I do. But last night I did not. I was feeling to good to stop drinking.

So this morning when my alarm went off, I rolled over and GROANED, and really did not want to get out of bed. My mouth was dry, I had that uneasy feeling in my stomach, and I just wanted to go back to sleep. But because I am too old, it means responsibilities. Ones that I cannot ignore. So I rolled out of bed, slowly made my way to the bathroom, and well you know the drill.

So now I ask was it worth it. maybe, maybe not. But I will say this. In the moment, that large peanut butter bacon milkshake from Sonic sure was awesomely tasty.

Wish I could lighten up with movies.

I love a good movie. I can discuss aspects of my favorites for hours. On the flip side I also find myself seeing wierd things that really bother me in movies, and thus make it hard to even watch at times. Not just the lack of writing/character development in so many of todays movies, and the heacy reliance on graphics, but odd little things. Couple examples Ill note, oddly with ties to the same character.

Soon to be released is a new Superman release. I am REALLY looking forward to it. The writers, director, and producer in place have a great record. And the cast is great. But as I see preview after preview I cannot get one thing out of my head. it shows Clark with a beard, before he takes on the Man of Steel persona. But then he is clean shaven as Superman. So how does he shave. Even better who cuts his hair. Those of you none comic nerds, ask what a silly question. But for you comic book readers you know this is a valid question. I really hope I do not obsese on this while watching the movie. Cause here's the thing. The last Superman movie they did, Superman Returns, in 2006 was a story that was suppose to take place 5 years after the superman 2 movie, which was made in 1980. And early in the film a kid captures a pic of superman on his PHONE. Yes his camera phone in 1985. HOW CAN THIS BE???. Now a normal person, IE not me, chalks this up to it's just a movie. But not me, for the rest of the movie I obsese about this mistake, O of course untill we learn that Lois' boy is Clark's/Supermans. AGAIN, HOW CAN THAT BE. SUPERMAN COULE NEVER FATHER A CHILD WITH A HUMAN!!!!!

God I wish I could just lighten up sometimes.

Over dramatic children.

I know all parents say their children are way over dramatic, but I have to say I have a case for the some of the most.

Today my daughter got a text from her friends saying the school bus left early and they where already on it. It normally comes about 7:45 and the text came a bit before that of course. Normally I am still home but today I had to leave for work early and Jenn already left to drop off the boys. So Dez calls her mom crying hysterically saying she missed the bus. Now Dez is a very repsponsible girl, and I canot ever remember getting on her case for missing the bus, which she has a few times. Things happen, that being said every time she has its the worst thing ever to her. I just chalk it up to her being a girl.

Now I also have 2 boys on the autism spectrum as you all know. Well today Josh, my youngest all of a sudden started screaming from his bedroom upstairs. I went up to see what was wrong. Well he plays with these beeds, he refers them to balls, and whatever color they are, IE the yellow ball, orange ball and so forth. . Well one of them was on the middle of a window cell that is behind his clothing dresser and out of his reach. He was screaming at the top of his lungs. So I reached and got it, gave it to him and what does he do. He rolls it on the window cell again and this time it fell behind the dresser. But did he get mad, NO this was actualy what he wanted. He was mad the first time that it did not fall behind the dresser, but instead just stayed on the window cell.

Man if only that ball would roll properly.

Why does a person who never passed a single real English Class after 7th grade have a Blog???

Well I have gone and created a blog. Why? I don't know. For some reason I feel the need to share my thoughts, my ideas, opinions, successes and failures with 2 people. I say that cause that's the most followers I'll probably end up with.

What might I write about? Probably a lot about sports and entertainment. Some about my life as a parent to autistic children. and maybe about things I do like couponing and my job as a District manager.

It will not be well written, for I am not a "good" writer.

What it will be is honest and sincere. That's all I want out of people when they share their own thoughts and feelings, so that's what I'll give.

This weekend was Memorial day weekend. Its currently Sunday night so still have actual Memorial day ahead of me. It was a really good weekend, and at the same time a hard weekend. I say both oddly due to the same reason

Sunday my wife and I got Baptized togethor. I had been as a child, and my wife was as a baby the traditional Catholic way, but I wanted to again, for the last year has been a big change for me and my life. And getting Baptized kinda put a stamp on all those changes. Some of my family showed up, they came in from out of town, went to the full service with us, and spent the afternoon with us.

It was awesome. Having them there to show support even though, none of them really have the exact same religious beliefs as I do, really showed me what family is supposed to be like. I unfortunatly feel that for 35 years, I was in the dark about what family really means. Due to that I didn't do a very good job of treating my family properly, and still struggle with how to act at times but now feel I understand a lot better what my role is.

It was hard because this weekend also involved a situation that I missed out on, because of so many things that have happened in the past that have soured some of my family realtionships. Some my say it was not my fault, but it is was or not, that doesn't really matter to me. It still is hard.

All in all though the changes I have made the past 6-12 months I feel good about, because those changes have been put in the only hands that can matters. God's. And now I have started putting the other things that matter into his hands as well. I you know what. It feels good.

Well that's all for now. I promise most of my posts will not be this serious.